Beanie: Vera Wang, Lipstick: Botanics "Rose", Yellow/Green Top: f21, Gray Blazer: Banana Republic thrifted, Purse: Vintage Dooney & Bourke, Jeans: f21, Shoes: Urban Original.
Friday wasn't a good day for me.
Nothing bad happened.
It wasn't even one of those days.
The day started off right (with my Bible) but the moment I got to work I was just fleshy.
By fleshy, I mean selfish, rude, and whiny. Probably more.
You know when you mess up and you feel bad afterward for what you said, did, didn't say, or didn't do? Well, this wasn't like that.
I totally knew, in the moment, that I was being obnoxious, hurtful, and hypocritical.
This is not the girl I want to be.
I want to be a woman filled with joy.
I want to be a selfless human being always looking for ways to help others. No matter who they are.
I want to be beautiful on the inside.
I want to be known for my patience.
I want to be kind to everyone--to her face and behind her back.
I want to be a crown to my husband.
I want to work hard without complaining.
I want to maintain a beautiful home where others can rest and be known.
I want my eyes to be OPEN.
I want to love when I've been wronged.
I want to be calm.
I want to be motivated.
I want to be able to handle much with little.
I'm not trying to be perfect, I just want my ugly and vulnerable side to still be presentable to others.
That is the kind of woman I want to be, always.