Wednesday, October 3, 2012

my, how i've grown.

Pregnancy has been quite the journey for me...
And if you've been reading for the last nine months, you already know that : ) 
I never had any complications or abnormalities (well, unless you count my diabetes scare). So I really can't complain. 
The biggest struggles for me were all internal. Emotionally and mentally more than physically.
(You can read a little bit about that here and here)
There have definitely been perks during this journey, and one of the most rewarding is how much I've learned about myself and, as a result, how I've grown throughout this process.

So, I thought I'd share those things with you:

I'm much less needy: Sure, there have been instances where I'm super emotional and need Ian to rescue me, but those are much more rare than they ever were before. It's like I realized that I'm going to be needed by someone and I have to be stronger and less self-centered. DUHHHHH.

I'm more confident: I guess I just feel more like an adult now that I'm going to be a mom. It sets me apart from all of the other 20-somethings in our ministry and in a weird way I feel like it connects me to them all the more (like maybe they feel more comfortable with me in a mother-type role rather than a peer-type role?). Anyway, I've also felt more connected to the adults in our church too. Like I'm one of them... And a lot of my previous anxiety and insecurity was centered around feeling awkward and lonely in social settings (you can read about that here and here). 

I'm less controlling: I've always been a planner and know how I want things to turn out (read here and here). I'm not sure if it's been my uncontrollable weight gain, emotions, or general lack of energy to keep up on things, but I've slowly been loosening my grip on life (read about that here). I'm much more flexible now and just take things as they come without worrying about them so much ahead of time.

How have you been growing lately?


  1. You were amazingly stylish the whole time! I pretty much wore stretchy cotton 24/7 for both of my pregnancies! Also, if you think you've done a lot of growing in the last 9 months, fasten your seatbelt least you'll have him here to kiss and squish! :) You are going to love being that sweet boy's mama!

  2. I love this post friend. You are so honest and real. I feel like God has been stretching me in the area of being content and not comparing myself to others. I have to be ok with who I am right now, and not wish my life away! love getting to know you through your blog! xoxo

  3. Love your reflections and I've loved following your journey! Sounds like you're totally ready to be an awesome mum! I've done a bit of mental growing too lately - I've felt inspired recently and have been working on being really mindful about my thoughts and feelings; staying positive, focused and motivated :)

    Life etc

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  5. Thank you for sharing this! I so appreciate when people are real about motherhood related things - exciting as babies are, some things about considering pregnancy kind of terrify me because that's a major adjustment for a girl to make in so many ways... but it helps when people are real about it instead of acting like it's all roses. It makes me feel like I am allowed to have real concerns mixed in with excitement - plus I could maybe use growth in some of these same areas, so there's one good thing about the adjustments that would come with pregnancy :)

  6. SOOOO EXCITING! I loved being pregnant, be sure to enjoy every moment. :)

  7. I just found your blog today, I love it! This is a great post, it's good to take a step back every now and again and really gauge your own progress in life. You look great by the way! Have a lovely day

    xoxo andrea