Another man-style post for ya...
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Ok you guys..... this is crazy.
How did my 52 Ways to Wow Your Husband book know that I've been having some minor depression/baby blues????
This weeks wow assignment is called "New Attitude".
The chapter begins with a story of two twin boys; an optimist and a pessimist.
A psychiatrist puts the pessimist in a room full of new toys only causing tears and fear of breaking the them. The psychiatrist then treated the optimist by putting him in a barn piled high with manure. Yes, manure.
The optimist yelped in delight and started digging out scoops of manure with his bare hands. Baffled, the psychiatrist asked the boy what he was doing.
The boy beamed in response and said "With all this manure, there must be a pony in here somewhere!"
The point of this intro is to prove how your outlook on life (in general) influences your response to circumstances.
The wow assignment is to first, acknowledge that depression can way heavy on a marriage. Men want to fix things, so when his wife is sad all the time he feels the need to hold her up. Yes, spouses are supposed to help each other, but when one is losing it all the time the other one feels the burden of managing the spouse, the house, the job, the kids. And eventually he will grow weary. Take an honest look at yourself and admit when you are being a downer. Nip it in the bud and take action to improve your own mental and emotional wellness, which will then improve your marriage too. See a doctor, exercise, pray, etc.-- take back your happiness!
As I've written before, Jesus is the only one that can bring you true joy and contentment. Plan a simple date with your man and share with him that you are taking action to get your joy back. Take him off the hook! God gave you your husband to be your partner. Not your therapist and not the one responsible for making you happy. "Use this date to thank him for caring, but free him from the pressure of having to make you happy".
Do I need to remind you why this will be hard for me this week? (read about my downer-ness here).
I think I do a pretty good job of sharing my feelings with Ian without begging him to make things better. But whenever I have a meltdown, I can see the worry in his eyes.
I plan to continue sharing my cares and burdens with him, but promise to not have expectations of him making me happy. There are some things in life that I need to talk about with a person to get advice, but that doesn't always have to be my husband. Look for a mentor in your life that you can share with without burdening them .
But you oh Lord, are a shield around me,
my glory, the One who lifts my head high.
How did the assignment of saying "Yes" from last week go?
Ian didn't ask for much, so I took the initiative by suggesting we watch a movie. A non-girly movie.
His eyes lit up in delight because I usually hate watching movies (I can't sit still for more than 20-30 mins, so I prefer TV with commercial breaks).
I will continue to say yes more often.